Tuesday, April 16, 2013
Revamp
I'm browsing. Lots of browsing in how to revamp my blog. I would really love to just create a new site and start fresh but I don't want to lose the little readers I have nor lose all my old posts (even though as of lately my readings have been dry, cranky, and boring in my own opinion).
It seems life (yea i'm pushing the repeat button again) is just a whirly windy mood swing for me. Sleepless nights, A moody baby, and missing my dad can make moods and emotions turn from a tremble to an earth quake.
This morning for example...my son decided that despite an early AM appointment for his helmet check that he just wasn't feeling the sleep thing. He was up every 30 minutes to every hour starting around 1am. I finally called it my morning at 4:30 and brought him out on the couch to chill with me while I sipped on my cup of joe. He proceeded to pass out next to me while I watched an episode of 30 Days on Netflix.
There's a thing floating around the internet right now called the 11 Step Program For those thinking of having kids . Lesson 3 best describes last night...and about every other night for me.
So to revamp the blog I need to decide on more set themes to be talking about. And if i'm going to talk about my day to day life I need to make it sounds more intriguing than whining. Because lord knows i'm master whiner these days. There's more to life than bitching about laundry undone and dishes piling up. That's just how my life is as of now and there's no use in complaining about something that isn't going be changing any time soon.
It seems life (yea i'm pushing the repeat button again) is just a whirly windy mood swing for me. Sleepless nights, A moody baby, and missing my dad can make moods and emotions turn from a tremble to an earth quake.
This morning for example...my son decided that despite an early AM appointment for his helmet check that he just wasn't feeling the sleep thing. He was up every 30 minutes to every hour starting around 1am. I finally called it my morning at 4:30 and brought him out on the couch to chill with me while I sipped on my cup of joe. He proceeded to pass out next to me while I watched an episode of 30 Days on Netflix.
There's a thing floating around the internet right now called the 11 Step Program For those thinking of having kids . Lesson 3 best describes last night...and about every other night for me.
So to revamp the blog I need to decide on more set themes to be talking about. And if i'm going to talk about my day to day life I need to make it sounds more intriguing than whining. Because lord knows i'm master whiner these days. There's more to life than bitching about laundry undone and dishes piling up. That's just how my life is as of now and there's no use in complaining about something that isn't going be changing any time soon.
Sunday, April 14, 2013
How is the weaning going today? Alright. But I am fracking irritable as duece. I'm ready to be done. This needs to go faster.
My kids clingy as heck and starting this phase.. http://au.lifestyle.yahoo.com/practical-parenting/baby/development/article/-/7753235/separation-anxiety-clingy-babies/ . I want my space already.
The irritability is making my house appear like a tornado just whipped through. In reality it's not that bad but it sure feels that way.
Resolution to today's issues? I"m closing the laptop and this is my last bit of internet usage until unwind before bed tonight.
Chow
My kids clingy as heck and starting this phase.. http://au.lifestyle.yahoo.com/practical-parenting/baby/development/article/-/7753235/separation-anxiety-clingy-babies/ . I want my space already.
The irritability is making my house appear like a tornado just whipped through. In reality it's not that bad but it sure feels that way.
Resolution to today's issues? I"m closing the laptop and this is my last bit of internet usage until unwind before bed tonight.
Chow
Saturday, April 13, 2013
24hrs
i'm attempting 24hrs without logging onto Facebook. It's proving to be a bit hard. Hard in that it's what i'm so used to doing in my day that i'm constantly catching myself. Pretty sad that FB is that consuming for a lot of people. Or social media in general. Others use Twitter or Mayspace...though I think the later is starting to become obsolete.
It's an eye opener though. Makes me realize how I live my life around what other's think and the need to tell everyone the little things i'm doing with my time. I was on the couch last night and the cats made a ruckus. My first reaction beside being pissed off that they might wake up Mannix....to jump on facebook and post a status how that incident annoyed me. But I caught myself and it made me realize how stupid of an update that would be. The sad thing...those are some things i post about. Who the hell cares that my cats banged into something and made noise. Really? My goal of this process is 3 things...not live on facebook. To communicate via the messenger to my friends that refuse to text me or to get yahoo messenger; Go on to do an occasional (as in maybe once every day or every other day) to check up on people or browse the sale sites and the other to stop posting status updates altogether.
My 24hrs started just before midnight last night. So far i've managed not to go on in the night when I woke up. I can do this!
In other news, I think my supply is starting to adjust a little. Not by to much yet but i'm not feeling like I was yesterday.
Mannix however, wasn't feeling to great. For some reason he was spitting up a lot and fussy. I canceled my plans to get flowers and work in the garden for sitting in the house with him. I held most of the time between getting off work and putting him to bed. He didn't want to be put down and he passed out for an hour in my arms. He never passes out in my arms in the day (unless he's in the Ergo and it's near naptime). So that made me realize just how not up to par he was feeling. This morning seems to be a bit better. I really really hope it's not the darn formula. I hope he adjusts to it soon. Am slowly increasing him to every other feed adding that one ounce formula. If he keeps spitting up like he did yesterday then I may switch him to soy.
It's an eye opener though. Makes me realize how I live my life around what other's think and the need to tell everyone the little things i'm doing with my time. I was on the couch last night and the cats made a ruckus. My first reaction beside being pissed off that they might wake up Mannix....to jump on facebook and post a status how that incident annoyed me. But I caught myself and it made me realize how stupid of an update that would be. The sad thing...those are some things i post about. Who the hell cares that my cats banged into something and made noise. Really? My goal of this process is 3 things...not live on facebook. To communicate via the messenger to my friends that refuse to text me or to get yahoo messenger; Go on to do an occasional (as in maybe once every day or every other day) to check up on people or browse the sale sites and the other to stop posting status updates altogether.
My 24hrs started just before midnight last night. So far i've managed not to go on in the night when I woke up. I can do this!
In other news, I think my supply is starting to adjust a little. Not by to much yet but i'm not feeling like I was yesterday.
Mannix however, wasn't feeling to great. For some reason he was spitting up a lot and fussy. I canceled my plans to get flowers and work in the garden for sitting in the house with him. I held most of the time between getting off work and putting him to bed. He didn't want to be put down and he passed out for an hour in my arms. He never passes out in my arms in the day (unless he's in the Ergo and it's near naptime). So that made me realize just how not up to par he was feeling. This morning seems to be a bit better. I really really hope it's not the darn formula. I hope he adjusts to it soon. Am slowly increasing him to every other feed adding that one ounce formula. If he keeps spitting up like he did yesterday then I may switch him to soy.
Friday, April 12, 2013
12 Apr
One word to sum up how things are going entering day 4.... engorgment. Despite efforts to do things as gradually as I can I think this is just a part that is inevitable. The LC's should briefly cover that this is part of the process with nursing. But noooo they don't talk about it probably because it would hinder moms from considering doing it, quite possibly; as I reach for my bag of frozen peas.
I think Mannix is taking alright to the formula. I don't believe his fussy bedtime moment's are directly related to the formula. He passed out early for bed last night without an issue after drinking half the 25/75 bottle. He did his normal 30-40 minute nap then woke up to finish the rest. After that he got fussy. I switched him to the sensitive stuff for now as his tummy isn't used to cow's milk derived stuff. I'm upping him to 2 bottles of mixed milk today. Gonna do that for about 3 days and then give it to him at every bottle feed. I start taking sudafed so my milk may possibly drying up sooner rather than later.
In other news, (because more and more family are starting to read my blog and i'm sure my nursing talk is very uninteresting to them lol) I started decorating the yard. Later today I will head out to buy some plants to put in pots (gonna go with succulants and cacti) and after that I will snag some pictures. I am sick of a boring yard and i'm not pregnant anymore so I'm not limited on the effort I can put into the yard. Though, i'm convinced doing my yard was part of the reason Mannix came early as the day before my contractions started I was weeding the garden.
I bought the rubber mulch. My hope is that it doesn't blow away when the dust storms come through. If it does well..$30 gone lol. It definitely makes the yard pop having mulch finally. They claim to not fade in the sun but we will see and a gentleman eye balling the different mulch posed the concern of calcium build up when it does rain which might leave white residue on them. Well, i'm up for challenging of these claims. I think the rubber mulch will last longer than the wood one's here.
Mannix is getting more and more personality. He is becoming the ultimate momma's boy with me not even trying (at least i'm unaware of what i'm doing to cause this behavior). I think for most babies this is just a normal part of their developmental growth. He doesn't like being held by other people. When I pass him off he seriously eyeballs them and keeps looking back at me with concern. Most of the time he'll get his classic pouty face and start crying. He cries initially after leaving him with my friend when she baby sits him. but thankfully it's short lived because she has a son his age to distract him. Plus he's used to being around her.
And he's finally trying to get up on his knee's. Still not that often but he's trying more and more. He isn't really scooting much either yet. He's just a slow one with wanting to try these things lol. My lazy little dude :p
I think Mannix is taking alright to the formula. I don't believe his fussy bedtime moment's are directly related to the formula. He passed out early for bed last night without an issue after drinking half the 25/75 bottle. He did his normal 30-40 minute nap then woke up to finish the rest. After that he got fussy. I switched him to the sensitive stuff for now as his tummy isn't used to cow's milk derived stuff. I'm upping him to 2 bottles of mixed milk today. Gonna do that for about 3 days and then give it to him at every bottle feed. I start taking sudafed so my milk may possibly drying up sooner rather than later.
In other news, (because more and more family are starting to read my blog and i'm sure my nursing talk is very uninteresting to them lol) I started decorating the yard. Later today I will head out to buy some plants to put in pots (gonna go with succulants and cacti) and after that I will snag some pictures. I am sick of a boring yard and i'm not pregnant anymore so I'm not limited on the effort I can put into the yard. Though, i'm convinced doing my yard was part of the reason Mannix came early as the day before my contractions started I was weeding the garden.
I bought the rubber mulch. My hope is that it doesn't blow away when the dust storms come through. If it does well..$30 gone lol. It definitely makes the yard pop having mulch finally. They claim to not fade in the sun but we will see and a gentleman eye balling the different mulch posed the concern of calcium build up when it does rain which might leave white residue on them. Well, i'm up for challenging of these claims. I think the rubber mulch will last longer than the wood one's here.
Mannix is getting more and more personality. He is becoming the ultimate momma's boy with me not even trying (at least i'm unaware of what i'm doing to cause this behavior). I think for most babies this is just a normal part of their developmental growth. He doesn't like being held by other people. When I pass him off he seriously eyeballs them and keeps looking back at me with concern. Most of the time he'll get his classic pouty face and start crying. He cries initially after leaving him with my friend when she baby sits him. but thankfully it's short lived because she has a son his age to distract him. Plus he's used to being around her.
And he's finally trying to get up on his knee's. Still not that often but he's trying more and more. He isn't really scooting much either yet. He's just a slow one with wanting to try these things lol. My lazy little dude :p
Wednesday, April 10, 2013
Well as far as the weaning is going i'm still trucking along. Once I became fully awake for the day I realized I didn't want to stop the process. I really want to do this. I changed formula's to sensative stuff in hopes Mannix wouldn't have a fit before bed again but there was no luck. I am only adding one ounce of formula and he just screams after his bottle. These fits have only started since last night. I think tomorrow I will try to supplement that ounce into one of his daytime bottles to see his reaction while he's fully awake. I'm just hoping his night time fussiness is either over stimulation or a bug. He's been coughing a little here and there and spitting up a tad and a slight runny nose. He had this once before and was on the side of fussy so really i'm hoping it's just a little bug over the formula.
In other news, I might be getting a new road bike this year. I mentioned it to Rob and he actually seemed sort of interested in the idea. I'd sell mine, which I doubt we'll get much for it anymore, and possibly get a Giant Avail. Which of the Avail series? I'm not sure. Probably the Inspire which is a little more in our price range lol
This was followed by Rob saying something along the lines to Mannix that 'mommy might just be getting her old self back'. Yes perhaps I am.
80 cent potpies....take like shit. Just saying...
I have to eat up the cheap food we bought when we were pinching pennies. I miss my Marie Colanders pot pie's. Banquet is like eating a pile of salt and cardboard. Blugh.
I have a dental tomorrow again. I am just soooo ready to be done with them. I have on more 'quadrant' after this one. My poor mouth. I really need to get in gear with the flossing. I'm soo horrible at remembering to do that.
In other news, I might be getting a new road bike this year. I mentioned it to Rob and he actually seemed sort of interested in the idea. I'd sell mine, which I doubt we'll get much for it anymore, and possibly get a Giant Avail. Which of the Avail series? I'm not sure. Probably the Inspire which is a little more in our price range lol
This was followed by Rob saying something along the lines to Mannix that 'mommy might just be getting her old self back'. Yes perhaps I am.
80 cent potpies....take like shit. Just saying...
I have to eat up the cheap food we bought when we were pinching pennies. I miss my Marie Colanders pot pie's. Banquet is like eating a pile of salt and cardboard. Blugh.
I have a dental tomorrow again. I am just soooo ready to be done with them. I have on more 'quadrant' after this one. My poor mouth. I really need to get in gear with the flossing. I'm soo horrible at remembering to do that.
The battle
Good lord. it's 2:30am and i'm having a mental debate with myself. No don't stop pumping; Yes Stop pumping. This is such a very hard decision that people can't decide for me yet I want them to.
I already bought formula and gave Mannix his first bit in his milk tonight. I was going to aim for slowly introducing an ounce at a time once a day and then slowly increase the feeds i put it in then slowly increase the ratio. But now i'm thinking this is a retarded decision.
For the most part I don't have an issue pumping. There are just those occasions where it becomes very inconvenient that make me want to throw in the towel. Then when my husband randomly blurts out 'your still pumping? it feels like you've been pumping for an hour'. Which makes me believe he's starting to get tired of the process too.
It seems the halfway point is a typical quitting point for a lot of pumping moms as i've been doing heavy research online. A lot quit between 6-10 months. Babies are transitioning to solids and will soon be transitioning to regular milks. But then I tell myself then why not hold out those extra few months until I put Mannix on regular cows milk? It'll spare his system in the end, especially as i'm not fond of reading the label of ingredients every time I pass the can of formula I bought him. Vegetable oil for babies? Really??
I was formula fed soy formula. I am just fine. My brothers were formula fed. They are just fine. I remind myself half of America is raised on formula and the are fine. So what are a few months in Mannix's life?
And again then I start looking at it more...out of all his friends Mannix is the one that has gotten sick the least..:knock on wood: sure he's gotten a few little sniffles here and there but he hasn't gotten sick. I equate it to the fact that I usually get the bug first so then he gets the antibodies from my milk and they fight it off for him. His friends however are either formula fed or 50/50.
And then I look at him and am amazed how the milk I produce has made him the chunky monkey he is and how my milk is capable of making him grow as big as he is.
And so i'm on the fence. I feel so wishy washy and my husband won't tell me what to do either...
I already bought formula and gave Mannix his first bit in his milk tonight. I was going to aim for slowly introducing an ounce at a time once a day and then slowly increase the feeds i put it in then slowly increase the ratio. But now i'm thinking this is a retarded decision.
For the most part I don't have an issue pumping. There are just those occasions where it becomes very inconvenient that make me want to throw in the towel. Then when my husband randomly blurts out 'your still pumping? it feels like you've been pumping for an hour'. Which makes me believe he's starting to get tired of the process too.
It seems the halfway point is a typical quitting point for a lot of pumping moms as i've been doing heavy research online. A lot quit between 6-10 months. Babies are transitioning to solids and will soon be transitioning to regular milks. But then I tell myself then why not hold out those extra few months until I put Mannix on regular cows milk? It'll spare his system in the end, especially as i'm not fond of reading the label of ingredients every time I pass the can of formula I bought him. Vegetable oil for babies? Really??
I was formula fed soy formula. I am just fine. My brothers were formula fed. They are just fine. I remind myself half of America is raised on formula and the are fine. So what are a few months in Mannix's life?
And again then I start looking at it more...out of all his friends Mannix is the one that has gotten sick the least..:knock on wood: sure he's gotten a few little sniffles here and there but he hasn't gotten sick. I equate it to the fact that I usually get the bug first so then he gets the antibodies from my milk and they fight it off for him. His friends however are either formula fed or 50/50.
And then I look at him and am amazed how the milk I produce has made him the chunky monkey he is and how my milk is capable of making him grow as big as he is.
And so i'm on the fence. I feel so wishy washy and my husband won't tell me what to do either...
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